one small step.

I’m still smilin’… :)

*After what was most definitely the hardest day in a long time. It really takes nearly losing something, to make you appreciate what you have. And, relationships are hard work, really hard work, specially if you want to make them last, and if you want them to be truthful and purposeful. My head’s been a little mess all weekend, you just start asking questions about everything, why, why, why? But, I held on, and I didn’t give up, and I leant on my friends, and I cried until I felt sick, but you know what? I feel strong, I feel like I’m going to be okay, on my own or not, I feel like you have to be okay on your own, cause it’s the only person you can truly trust. You can’t place all your life into a humans hands, you just can’t. It’s a ridiculous though. You can trust them, you can love them, but for your own sanity, you cannot give them all of you, not everything, because, then if they go, what do you have left? I am so in love, and I wouldn’t change a thing, but I am so glad I came out of this stronger, instead of more dependant on others. This is the worst structured blog ever, but I don’t care. This is me, this is what’s happening, and I really just am so thankful I have who I have in my life, and that I’m still smiling :)